Nuke energy...

just the other day, my colleagues and i were basically talking about the war in Lebanon and of course, the issue of nukes arised. every country now seems to be going for nuclear power (for both right and wrong reasons). we were just wondering when "Bolehland" will consider using such a tremendous power source...and here it is: "Malaysia may go for nuke energy" - the star. call me skeptical or paranoid...but wouldnt that leave room for things like "We believe you're habouring terrorist" which then leads to "Surrender your nuclear technology or else..." from you know where?!

i dont know. do we even have the adequate resources for such a large scale, high risk facility?! hell, all i know is...im definately not going to live anywhere in the same state as the nuke plant. good luck!!

moving from views on news, regarding my entry on the 22.08.2006 (In the shadow of another...), i've decided on how i want to proceed from here on. no more mr. nice guy!! am fed up of being taken for granted and overlooked. as from today, i will only do what and when i feel like doing and not go out of the way just for you and your requests. i will also slowly venture into other aspects of things as well and not stay put under your "selective tutelege".

note: if the person (the shadow) who feels that he is whom im talking about...i have nothing against you. in fact, i respect you as well as admire you...as a team partner, a friend and most importantly as a brother.

negative zone

You know... it's true and I can confirm it.

Don't get to the negative zone of any female. Once you are in it, whatever you do will seem negative, rude and annoying to her. She will even puke just hearing your apple polishing voice. *vomitsss*

But all is not lost. It takes a really long time to be out of that negative circle..... it does happen. And when it does, "Hey, actually he's not that yong sui after all".

Dirge of Cerberus: Final Fantasy VII

Alrite I was being extremely harsh in my earlier review. In all honesty this gets a 2/5... Pretty enjoyable at parts.

Pros
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1) Good pre-rendered cinematics. Absolutely beautiful.

2) Very nice soundtrack collection.

3) Beautiful real-time character models.

4) Though flawed, but at times, rather enjoyable shooter system. Non-varied in the customization department though.

5) Storyline is flawed, but nevertherless had potential... Secret ending shows a possible twin of Sephiroth in existence. (The FF7 legacy goes on)

6) Nice boss battles (I really like the one with Rosso the Crimsom, can't get enough of that b**ch).

Cons
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1) Bad voice acting on Hojo's part.

2) Repetitive shooter. Flawed aiming system (Though this has been fixed from the earlier Jap version. I had both version so I could tell how bad the Jap version was).

3) Repetitive environment.

4) Short game. Finished in an average 6-8 hours.

5) Corny dialogue

6) Very scripted gameplay.

7) Uninteractive environment.

It's worth a round... but I don't recommend owning it.

Meteor Garden

Sometimes I wonder why I enjoyed watch Meteor Garden so much. ...I think I know why, but why am I so stuburn? Why am I fighting it? Why am I giving excuses?

Maybe it takes rivers and mountains to wake me up.

Or actually, just one big slap on my face.

In the shadow of another...

have you ever felt you're always in someone's shadow?! no matter what you do or how hard you to try...you just get no where?! when such a thing happens...how do you cope?! what do you do?! keep it in and cower away?! or just face the fact that you will be no more than a mere shadow and live with it?! this has been going on for quite a while already and i've done nothing but remained silent...keeping and hiding it inside like it didnt matter. till lately when it all hit me with big bang. i was unimportant...just like a shadow. to make matters worse, i was asked a favour...but was called by the other person's name. what the hell?! sigh...

maybe i should move on...away from the world that i once grew to love...or maybe endure a little while more. irregardless, this is eating me up...

Momentary Addiction...

Heh... please pardon me for my upbeat facination with Jean Grey in X3... =P She's just waaaaaaaay too coowl for me to not post these pix...


Heh... can't wait for the ori DVD to come out...

Friday
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Had dinner with the gang at Dave's. Pretty good place. Kinda pricey though, but the portion and the taste makes up for everythin. Nice atmosphere too. Bought Dirge of Cerberus that night.

Saturday
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Went to cous to watch X3.

Sunday
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Re-feng shui the com room. It seems alright now though... still needs getting used to.

Other than that, a peachy weekend. =P Take care people. *Hugs*

What idiots!!

HAHAHA!! check this out..."Oops, only cheques, not cash" - the star. i cracked up laughing so loudly. OMFG!! how can 1 mistakingly take a Cheque Deposit Machine instead of the ATM?! its like mistakingly buying an orange when you wanted an apple. i wonder if the moron who netted the machine got killed by his members for his idiocy...he should be!! HAHAHA!! speechless...

on another note, for some weird reason after reading this "Kuala Lumpur is cheapest city in the world says report" - the star, i had a funny feeling something with a price tag is going to rise soon. all this talk/reviews about being the cheapest and why there are price increases are just justifications of more increases to come. so beware people...(this just my 2 cents. dont want people coming after me for stipulating things without any evidence. *bleakz*)

now...on to non-news related issues, i visited Marco's Pizza yesterday evening (despite getting bad reviews on it). had spaghetti carbonarra and hawaiian pizza. the spaghetti was weirdly funny and im still trying to find out why. it smelled really good but lacked the extra punch in the cheese section. in fact...even the cheese on the pizza lacked that effect. but it wasnt as watery as others had claimed. on a overall...i give it a 3/5 stars. got a 15% discount off the bill cause i was a UOB credit card holder. but the best thing for that evening...was the company (my darling...*muakz*). hehehe.

promo time!! KLPac: All about Harps. havent heard (or know what it is?!) a harp concert before, this is the oppurtunity. well..actually, im just doing this to help out a colleague of mine as her sister will be performing. for discounts...hehehe. sorry, cant help you in that department. even her sister has to pay the full rate. (hint: soloh, since you're into music scene for some 'undisclosed' reasons...why not check it out. hehehe)

anyway, this is me...signing off for now. ja neh~

Did the test that David took

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have high extroversion. You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends. You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation. Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!" Conscientiousness: You have high conscientiousness. Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life. Most things in your life are organized and planned well. But you borderline on being a total perfectionist. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness. You're generally a friendly and trusting person. But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism. You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

Life...

i got this off of friendster which i find meaningful. never looked at things this way lately.

Today before you think of saying an unkind word, think of someone who can't speak.

Before you complain about the taste of your food, think of someone who has nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife, think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion.

Today before you complain about life, think of someone who went too early to heaven.

Before you complain about your children, think of someone who desires children but they're barren.

Before you argue about your dirty house; someone didn't clean or sweep, think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before whining about the distance you drive, think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.

And when you are tired and complain about your job, think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another, remember that none of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down, put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around.

Personality test...

I did a personality test...cause i was BORED!! finding it...rather true...sadly true. goes to show what virgo's are made of. hmnn...oh well, you guys be the judge...

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have high conscientiousness. Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life. Most things in your life are organized and planned well. But you borderline on being a total perfectionist. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness. You're generally a friendly and trusting person. But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism. You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is medium. You are generally broad minded when it come to new things. But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it. You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

The Five Factor Personality Test

FWS...

remember i complained about having too much food to eat and that i was actually scared of it?! well now...im suffering from FWS (Food Withdrawal Syndrome)!! been having such much nice food to eat for the past few weeks...up till now, i dont know what to eat anymore. all that changed when the "designated-lunch-lady" approached us and said we're going for lunch at Spring Garden Restaurant KLCC. yea!! food...glorious food (think scene from Oliver Twist...old classic movie by the way)!! *bleakz* hehehe.

sigh...going to miss all this as this is my last week here in KLCC. but then again...will definately return at the end of the month for lunch...Shangri-la la la buffet!! hehehe. cant wait!! oh yea, my project manager asked everyone something weird today..."why dont men have menopause and only women have it?! dont know? !" well...she said "as the name implies, men-no-pause!!". the things my project manager thinks of. oh well...back to scribbling documentation.

On call 24/7

My time is almost up. It's time for me to go on-call! WAHAHAHAHA!

Okay, I'm freaking out actually. I don't think if I do a good on-call job. I don't want to end up waking my secondary up in the middle of the wee hours in the morning to ask "Hey Alex, sorry to wake you but how do you know if ....?" I'll whack myself to death if I do that.

A lot of big bosses coming down too for these few weeks. A lot of good meals this month man. Good lunches and dinners. Going for another team building again... I wonder how am I going to do on-call while on team building. I bet it will suck for me. And then a really early mooncake festival party. I told my boss that I can't be involved in organizing the team building and attend the party because I will be busy with tickets... but ah... aiyorrr he ahhhhhh

Anyway, I hope it's not too bad la. I can handle it gua... need to bla bla a bit to calm myself.

Still feel guilty ler. I have to learn how to control my temper already. I can't be easily annoyed already. I have disappointed myself man... very ashamed of myself. If I were them, I would have slap me in the face actually. *sign* I better wake up.. and wake up fast.

I should say thanks to him man... but maybe I'll just wait till the time is right. I feel kind of awkward now ler. Or maybe I'll just shut up. He gave me the look... the "I know, so just don't say anything"

...but no ler. I will apologize.

X-men: The Last Stand DVD collection.

The DVD collection encompasses the entire trilogy. Due this October.

Bus Stop

Phamplets distributors + surveyors vs. ddkwh...

has any of you ever encountered distributors of the "work from home" phamplets?! i have...almost everyday as they swamp the staircases and escalators of KLCC LRT station. not a day goes by whenever i pass them i wonder "are they the so called work from home people?", "are they being paid by the so called work from home people?" and "do they get summoned by authorities for making a mess?". very curious. maybe i shall ask 1 of them out of boredom 1 of these days...but what i dont like are those surveyors on god knows what which usually involves these ladies chasing after chinese men. so..how do you avoid all these said people?! simple...take out your mobile and act like you're sms-ing or calling someone (or of course...you could actually call someone up just to bother them and save you ass *bleakz*). saves you the trouble of saying "No, not interested" or playing a game of "Fox vs. Hen (protecting her chicks)" with them. there was this one time where the lady wanted to hug me in order to stop me from moving along. crazy...o_0

someone once pointed out to me they're only doing their jobs. have no qualms or any grudge against them performing their jobs but dont stop me from doing mine...especially when im strutting my ass to get to work on time and after work to meet my darling. hehehe. but then...you people are never around after lunch. why is that so?! dont you guys out there know...people after generally happier (i know i am...). so here's a tip...do your work around 12pm - 2.30pm. you might actually get more than you usually would in the begining of the day...

My name has changed...

sigh...project timeline coming close to an end. going to miss the staff at BHPetrol. if you guys are reading this, thanks for taking care of me and being so cooperative and supportive. it seems my name has also been changed numerous times in the course of the project. came in as David...which eventually evolved to David SAP as there is another David (he's from CSA) here. was fine with it...till i started doing financial programs with the other abaper. then it became Debit and the other consultant was called Credit. reason for this...we seem to balance the applications and balances out. nevermind. all turned weird when the project manager came back from Pakistan and heard about my name being changed...so she named me..."Darwood" which is David in Pakistan... o_0.

but today...was the ultimate...everyone for some weird reason, started calling me Rabbit!! -_-' i just hope it doesnt evolve into something else before i leave. before i end the post, here are some pictures on the day BHPetrol went Live! with SAP. CONGRATULATIONS TO BOTH PARTIES INVOLVED!!

part of the team on go Live! at 8am (me already working since at 6am)

project manager caught in the act of eating on the job!!

part of the team at 5pm (notice me slowly deteriorating...)

BHPetrol and SAP group photo...

and how could the day end with me not making a joke by sleeping at the go Live! post. hehehe. but yea...i was really tired i could actually sleep in that position...

What is the root cause of my stress?

Ho guai stress ah!

Seriously lo... I'm gaining fat instead of weight man. I did my weight in again today at the gym and my instructor gave me the "Nono, this is bad".

I gained 1.5kg but my percentage of body fat went up by 2%

Don't know what happen to me la.

I think I'm really stressed out. I can't stop thinking about food. I can't stop munching! Food just relaxes me.

Can someone stop me because I can't stop myself! Help me stop myself!

Somehow, I think I'm like the botak dancer la. Something is wrong with me but I don't want to know what. I keep giving myself excuses, avoiding the second check up and is 3 months overdue. ..... I need time off man. Really need some time to sort myself out.

I don't know myself anymore.

It's so much easier to put the blame on something. That key factor. Good at the beginning, but it's bad for me now. I want to move on. Learn from it and move on but... it's feelingsss ohhh ohh uhhhh feelingsss what about my feelings…feelings of hateeee…

Ok, not hate hate action going on but I think … no, I know I’m stressed out. And stress don't just go *poof*

What is the root cause of my stress?! I f***ing can’t figure it out.

I'm not me anymore.. I wasn't me a long time ago.

You all noticed. But I know you just didn't say anything.

Thanks for putting up with me.