Year 2006

i vaguely remember what i did for the year 2006. Talk about time flies. But to sum it, it was a fun year.

I met 2 crazy bald men in the office. Partied and got wasted with them. They really changed my life. I started to have fun with life after meeting them. Thanks dudes.

Bangkok was sort of my second home for this year, I flew in and out of Bangkok. But it was all good. I get to meet people with different cultures, but work is a bitch when I was there so let's not go into that. hahaha!

Finally get to go on a holiday with my family after so long to Hong Kong. As usual my family let me do all the planning till my brother complains about me being too bossy. I guess I am a bit bossy. :P But u have to live with it. haha.

But during this year, two people that i know has passed away. It was hard as it made me realised that one day my close ones will leave me which I fear the most. Of coz at the same time, I start to cherish the people beside me even more.

But life is a curveball. Learning from it make us what we are now. :D

Reflection

Well, looking back, it's already been a long time... but still have not shaken off my feelings for somebody. Some might call it an unproductive obsession, but I wouldn't claim that as such. Yeah well, I WAS obsess that one time, but now... ocassionally it comes to thought and I would just go all limpy and sad-ish... some things I can never have, I am well aware of that... Does that mean... what I am feeling is actually true?

How does one know when one is in the zone?

1) Looking pass the outer appearance, the flaws. Confession, the person absolutely does not look it, but to me... absolutely k and no one can beat that unique k-ness. Sure I do admit others are a lot more attractive but none can make me feel this way.

2) Fallin in the zone at the first sight, and withheld that feeling till now. Does that even mean something? Even the first impression has caught my attention.

What else is there that defines the zone? I wouldn't actually know myself... so far items 1 and 2 are the only ones I have... Not and don't think will ever move beyond this phase to know what the zone actually means.

Despite all this... though not full-heartedly willing, I would eventually have to back out and conceal everything deep within... just knowing at least the person's happy.

And no... there's no more obsession going on... just random feelings occasionally. And no... there's no contact anymore.

Yeah I know, I am dreaming an impossible dream... sigh*

I would just cry sometimes...

I don't care what anyone thinks.

Happy new year everyone.

That Tingly Feeling's Back...

Well, looking back, it's already been a long time... but still have not shaken off my feelings for somebody. Some might call it an unproductive obsession, but I wouldn't claim that as such. Yeah well, I WAS obsess that one time, but now... ocassionally it comes to thought and I would just go all limpy and sad-ish... some things I can never have, I am well aware of that... Does that mean... what I am feeling is actually true?

How does one know when one is in the zone?

1) Looking pass the outer appearance, the flaws. Confession, the person absolutely does not look it, but to me... absolutely k and no one can beat that unique k-ness. Sure I do admit others are a lot more attractive but none can make me feel this way.

2) Fallin in the zone at the first sight, and withheld that feeling till now. Does that even mean something? Even the first impression has caught my attention.

What else is there that defines the zone? I wouldn't actually know myself... so far items 1 and 2 are the only ones I have... Not and don't think will ever move beyond this phase to know what the zone actually means.

Despite all this... though not full-heartedly willing, I would eventually have to back out and conceal everything deep within... just knowing at least the person's happy.

And no... there's no more obsession going on... just random feelings occasionally. And no... there's no contact anymore.

Yeah I know, I am dreaming an impossible dream... sigh*

I would just cry sometimes...

I don't care what anyone thinks.

Happy new year everyone.

Crippled ....

updates, i'm on leave for a whole week ... yipee, but i crash my car last friday :( damage is i dont have a car to use for over a month, and nothing much besides all i have to blame is myself being sleepy ... :(

Partay Night. 9th Dec.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHIAN!"

It was a pretty fun night! =D Got to get together with the gang once more. Particularly with the 4g2g gang.

Still have not purchase a pressie for sis teckiee just yet. hehe... paiseh. We will see what I can find. =P

Good food, fun company, but only think I am curious about is that the PS2 is no longer heng among our age groups. Guess I have yet to outgrow myself to the realm of cars and cellphones, and other gizmos. heh. Got a lil' worried when the little ones got hooked onto the game though... Wasn't even sure if I were to pass on my addiction of games to their fragile minds just yet... Hope no damage is done. =( Even during packin time, they were reluctant to let go. =( Sorry do re mi. Maybe next time can play again. =D

I was surprised I was able to catch up with some people I nv thought I would. Turns out that the person is different from last time. Maybe it's just me being more open minded this time around. After few rounds of conversations, I find that person pretty nice after all. =)

Was overly cautious with a fair few though... never did have anything in common and don't plan to consummate anything at present as well. Perhaps things might be different in the future. Only time will tell.

I was particulary fond with the naughty moments towards the ending of joy time. By naughty I mean innocent kinda naughty just for kicks. hehe... I would love to see those pictures again. Just gives me the giggles! =P

Take care people.

Fergalicious... It's HOT! HOT! HOT!

Ackkk... can't get this song out of my head...





My other fav too... Fergie is HOTZ!




So far I love all Black Eye Pea songs that come out on music video. Love their tunes.

Cover up or else denda up to RM500...

hahaha...what a joke man!! read this article from the star (MPKB: Cover up or else) and am feeling very disappointed and utterly disgusted by the statements made. goes to show these men are nothing more than a male chauvinistic pigs!! am utterly disgusted till the point im sad to admit i am in the same species as these morons!! why dont they just ban all women from their state altogether?! would be alot easier and cheaper than deploying people to focus on suspicous areas would it not?! such sexist and dumb remarks.

do these people actually think before speaking up ar?! i mean, statement like “This is an insult to Islam” should not be even made. what relations does dressing up have with your religion?! it is the person who have these unclean thoughts and take actions based on their thoughts that are the disgraceful ones. god tests usin many ways and especially through temptations, it is by giving in to these temptations that sin and disgrace is commited is it not?! besides, whats so wrong in a women dresing comfortable and 'sexily' if it makes them feel good and confident about themselves?! dont you dress not dress up to feel good and confident?!

please dear morons, grow up and be more open minded. how are we to grow and develop into a great unified and glorified nation when you are so backward minded and make such stupid conclusions and remarks like that?! you dont live in huts or in the jungle anymore (or maybe you still do...i dont know)!! have respect for women and stop thinking with your asses start thinking with your brains instead of your penis!!

i really do support women's organization statements against the MPKB (Outrage over fine for 'revealing clothes'). what about people with bigger rear-ends?! does this mean they cannot leave their houses?! well, you can jolly well forget about Visit Malaysia 2007 to Kelantan after this issue man. who they hell in the right state of mind would want to go there for the fear of being caught for 'sexily' dressing up?! imagine driving to the border dressed up 'sexily' and the officers stops you and says "Cik, you tak boleh pakai sexy sexy masuk Kelantan. I no choice but Saman you RM500".

hahaha...thank god i have no relations to Kelantan. would not know where to put my face after such ruling has been made. i think i'll stop here. too much steam and i cant exactly write out what i really want to say. what a saddening story...

Added Collect-seon!

Whoa!!! Addtiction's got the best of me! As usual. heh... In my couple of weeks absence, I've purchased myself some slurps. Whther they were worthy investments... well, time will tell... Damn you IGN!... if only you weren't there to keep me informed on upcoming blinks*... heh Just kidding.

Anyways, the cake's icing!:

1) Gears of War
This is a totally awesome experience! Awesome graphics! Frantic action! Unadulterated gore! And all in real time! Still, I'm unable to tell if certain cutscenes are pre-rendered or not. Guess they are, and oh... the action's over real soon, another let-down of the game.

2) Call of Duty 3

Hv not played through yet, but reviews are raving good! And I love the comparison video Gametrailers.com did for all 3 next gen consoles: Wii, Xbox360, PS3. By far Wii's version sux bad in the grph department, and surprise... I've personally seen that the Xbox's real time renderer is better than the PS3s!!! Shocking! Could 360's light sourcing capabilities actually beat the shit out of PS3s? Man... that's a real let down. Certainly makes me re-consider re-marryinz.

3) F.E.A.R.

Not played through as well, but am determine to start the game as soon as uhmm... well... time will tell yet again.

Numb nuts:

1) Superman Returns

Well, I've had high hopes for this game when the previews first came out. Then again, my judgement would nv be as bad as the critics. It certainly is a repetitive game, but the graphics are no where as lousy as they claim. And ohh, playing the game on PS2 does help in boosting up optimism of the game on 360. heh.

2) Dead or Alive Extreme 2.

Damn, this game sucks. Regretted buying it. I guess anyone's better off with the XXX version of its predecessor on the xbox. Piece of rubbish. Wonderin if I could return it? =P heh...


What I have been doing the past couple of weeks?

1) Low yat's a nice place to hang out to observe (more like stalk) k winks* winks*. Plenty of them! heh...

2) Sungei wang starting to bore me out. I don't see the kicks in all the street-style, HKG setting. Though one store I will definitely frequent more often, since she was gracious enough to give me a discount. heh.

3) Heard that Casino Royale's a good movie. Anyone wanna watch with me? *Bambi eyes*

4) Gonna exact revenge on my cousie's dog for destroying my brand new sandals. Awww man... I couldn't do that. Look at those puppy eyes.

5) AC & E are MAJOR Ks!

6) Hmm... I thought we were close... but then again... it's still me doing all the work at keeping in touch... I am certain things won't end so soon. But I definitely am losing interest in keeping up. Gradually... guess I just have to learn to let go... Referring to one of my sisters.

7) To my other sister, CAN WE NOT KEEP MEETING UP UNDER THE CIRCUMSTANCES OF YOU WANTING TO SELL ME SOMETHING!??!?!! For once, I would just love to catch up with you without you having to shove Direct selling stuffz and Unit trust down my troat! Don't get me wrong, I am so so happy to see you and would love keeping in touch, but I am losing interest with all the sales-woman pitch. Should I be frank with you? Hmm.

8) I admit, I have short term memory span. I can't keep the composure of my thoughts long enough for conversations to be constant, you should know that already. Why still deliberately question me in front of everybody? I don't see myself betraying your thoughts to them.

9) To HL, I am deeply sadden by your choice of action. Nothing I could do that, and certainly not worthed the effort in explaining things. Sometimes... I can never understand them, even being one myself. *Deeply looking and all others I know*

10) To P, urm... As usual, a major disappointment. Not worthed explaining.

11) Party? Well, my next one would be teckiee's. hehe. =) Looking forward to it. But rather nervous in finding out who else would be there too considering the preps made are catered for a big partz. I tend to avoid all forms of past connections (Excluding everyone from 4guys2girls of course). But don't worry teckiee, I will behave. hehe.

Woooooooo it's 12.30pm on a Sunday afternoon!!! Still not done anything... Bwaiz all love cha! =D *MUAK*

Happy birthday but pls cake your own cake

You know, confirm that I'm not the sensitive one la. They are the ones who are insensitive. I cannot be considered "sui hei" after what is said and done.

In the past I did the running around, buying the birthday cakes. I really didn't have a problem or I didn't mind at all. I would bake for the birthday boys an girls, but when it came to my birthday, I was asked to bake my own cake?

NN: Eh come join the discussion.
TT: We are planning on the Nov and Dec birthday babies. You also Dec rite?
Me: Yah, what you all planning to do?
NN: Dinner and of course birthday cake la. So teckiee, you baking the cake right?
Me: *HUH??? My birthday also la why I bake cake?* Har? Don't want la.
NN: Never mind la, we want to try your cake.
Me: *What the hell?!* No la, don't want la. Later not nice then you know.. not nice.
NN: It's ok one. We pay you back la. You calculate how much.

At this point I was quite ARGGHGHHGHG

Me: Sorry la, I won't bake my own birthday cake. *I kind of raised my voice and said it loud and clear. There were about 6 of us in the conversation and all heard it.*
XX: Ok la, have to buy like that. Who is buying?

Everyone kept quiet.

YY: *points at me* Teckiee la, she always buys one what.

At this point, I really did want to walk off and pretend I didn't even join the conversation in the first place. I just found it so insincere. I know we are not only celebrating my birthday, but a few birthday, but I personally still feel it's not right to ask me to plan the event. Celebrating my birthday also la! Come on man! Damn kurang ajar you know!

How would all of you feel if I said "Hey happy birthday! I'm planning to buy you a shirt, AA and BB too. Can you buy them and pay first? You can claim back from the company later. Set a date and venue to give the shirt out also."

Sorry la, but I didn't buy the cakes. And now that they all have bought them, I really hope they at least appreciate MY actions next time. And I had to lug the kilograms of cakes to office by foot. You think not heavy ah!

ISHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH